Day # 2 – Your Relationship with Hashem

September 22, 2009 | Comments 1

These special days are very well suited to improving your relationship with Hashem, especially with regard to the issue of so-called “leaving learning” and going to work.

It’s the time of the year that we put our matters in order, and sort out who we are and what we are supposed to be doing. It’s when we reevaluate our performance in life up to this point, and attempt to make positive changes going forward.

First of all, you are about to create lots of turmoil in your life. As you step out from the relative calm that is kollel into the fast-paced world that we all live in, life is about to get a lot more complicated, at least in the short run. If you aren’t careful, you can easily trip up and have what’s called a “yireeda” in ruchniyos. As you leave kollel to start working, you will find that “spare time” doesn’t exist anymore. Bein Hazmanim becomes a thing of the past, and late morning rises are now history.

It’s time to make serious commitments to your yiddeshkeit. Davening, learning, giving tzedaka, these are all matters that need to be addressed now, before you are in the thick of things. Now that things are new and fresh, the commitments you have in place will be more likely to hold.

Secondly, there is no better time than now. Aseres Yemei Tshuva is a special time of rachamim (see Rabeinu Yona Shaarei Tshuva 2:5). It’s when Hashem pays close attention to our tefillos. Since you are embarking on an uncertain and unsettling path in life, you are bound to need lots of Siyata Dishmaya. And there is no better time than now to request it.

Leaving kollel can actually bring you closer to Hashem. You are starting life on your own, taking responsibility into your own hands. Your parnossah is no longer dependent on other people, it is coming directly from Him through the actions that you are taking. He is your provider, and by fully recognizing that fact, your ruchniyos will grow even stronger.

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